Today, I had my worst fear happen.
I didn’t realize it was my worst fear.
And yet, when it happened, my face turned hot and read, and I got dizzy for a moment at the words coming out of this seemingly nice ladies mouth.
Let me walk you through the story…
Today I was working. A normal day for me. A lady walked in the door and proceeded to just walk past the front desk. I asked, “Are you going to sign in?” I thought I had a smile on my face or just looked curious. She said, “I’m a guest.” She was alone, however. I asked, “Of who? Are they here?” She said, “No.” I then explained that she needed to go to desk instead of walking on by so we could look her up and track her visits. It’s our policy. And I also said I would need her license, as this is also policy. She said, “Okay”. And then it happened.
She asked, “Is this a christian facility?” I figured it had something to do with me just having to stop her and I replied, “Yes. This is just policy. I’m just making sure we’re doing the right thing.”
And she replied, “Well all of the other girls here are super nice, but you have a terrible attitude.”
My face flushed. I got really hot. I was, at first, hurt. I had not meant to seem rude at all. I simply was doing what I have been taught to do. I just wanted to make sure she wasn’t using the facility when she shouldn’t be.
I told her, “I was sorry, I didn’t mean to if I seemed that way, I was just trying to do my job.”
She gave me her license and went on her way.
After hurt, I was angry. “How dare she. I WAS nice. I was simply doing my job!” I asked the girl with me if I seemed rude and she said no. I told other people, craving replies that I was in the right. (Which I do not want from you for reading this post. I just want you to hear what I learned.) I desperately wanted to cry and pray but had to continue working.
I got in my car after work and I rethought the situation. I prayed this prayer.
“Lord, I truly did not mean to seem rude. I pray that if I did that you would help me to recognize this and fix it to be more like You.”
Because here’s the thing. Maybe, I was rude. I truly didn’t mean to be, but maybe my face looked it. I have to remind myself that not everyone is trying to cheat the system. Do I think she was right for calling me rude after 30 seconds of me asking her to just stop by the desk when coming to the Y? No. But I am glad she did, because I want to make sure, 100% of the time, that I am not being rude to anyone. I desperately want to make sure I am treating people the way Jesus would treat them. The first thing I want people to know about me is that I follow and love Jesus. This woman did not think that. And that is what really hurt. I also do not EVER want to get an authority complex and get pleasure from being OVER people. I want to recognize everyone as a human being. Who knows what she had been through today? Or who knows her past experiences?
I felt such a wave of rejection after this moment. I dislike people disliking me. Especially over something I had no idea I was doing.
But this will help me be more aware of how I act towards people.
I want to be Jesus to EVERYONE. I know I am not perfect, but I want to strive to be like Jesus EVERY day to EVERY one. Regardless of race, age, gender, or any other factor.
This lady will be getting a big ole smile from me from now on. And maybe she will change her mind.